The first 30 days were really rough. Lots of physical cravings (especially the first three days), and every place I went there was a trigger. The gas station: where I used to buy dip. The coffee shop: where I used to ninja dip. Home: dipping was sure fun there. Taking the dog to the park for a walk: oh I used to love dipping here. Mowing the lawn: fuck what a good time for a dip.
Now I've been through over a month of triggers, from one perspective it is frankly much easier to stay off the dip. The strong urges aren't there any more. I've hit something of a lull though. My quit isn't shiney, new, sexy, and cool anymore. It's starting to feel mundane, like it's not all that big of a challenge.
The danger is that I'll start to tinker with the idea of having "just one" dip. I don't want to fucking do that.
As for nicotine gum, I am almost completely off it at this point. That stuff was a fucking godsend. The cravings were really bad even with the gum. Without it, I would never have been able to put down the evil can of homocidal cat turds.
I want to cut out the nicotine gum completely pretty soon. I'm down to a quarter of a piece of the gum 1-3 times a day. It really isn't that bad. My plan is to stop it next weekend. However, I frankly don't give a fuck about that because I haven't used Skoal in over 40 days!!!
I'll let you know how getting off the nicotine gum goes once I start that. I pretty much feel like I don't need it now, but then when I tell myself to stop chewing it I start to feel really anxious, so there is some addiction component still operating there obviously.
But as I said, I frankly don't give a fuck about that because I haven't used Skoal in over 40 days!!! Some people have said this isn't a "real quit" because of the gum. To them, I say suck your mother's cheese-infested cunt bitch. We don't need your dogmatic idiocy in these parts. There are many ways to quit. I hope yours works for you, and if you aren't a fucking asshole, you will hope mine works for me.
That's all folks
14 years ago