Day two urges not quite as bad as yesterday...yet

I had a great day today out with the family. Since I am a ninja dipper (hide it from them) it was nice to be out with them and not have to sneak around looking for a good time to chew. At one point I really wanted a dip but plopped in a piece of the nicotine gum instead. That helped some, but not with all the extra stuff I like that came with chew (the sneakiness (yes a paradox I both love and hate being sneaky), the flavor, the spitting, all the accoutrements of dipping).

As I said, it was really tough yesterday the hour before I went to bed. I was aching for some dip, even considered driving out to buy some. I decided to wait out the urge. I at least know now to expect it to be tough tonight right before bed.

I am scared about getting home for the first time (I am on vacation until tomorrow night, purposely planned this time to stop so I could be away from my usual triggers). I am so used to dipping at home, especially while playing video games!!! It is such a fun thing, playing the game chewing, great time by myself. I need to prepare myself now to eat carrots, candy, nicotine gum, anything except the chew!

In four weeks I will start to wean myself off this gum, but I'm not even gonna think about that right now as it is hard enough to stop the Skoal. I plan to not take any Skoal for the next hour. In one hour, I can come and read this post and decide again.